An unbelievably amazing view from the 'burbs on New Year's morning. I'm gazing west at the Front Range and thinking, "What an amazing way to start a new year!" Reflectively, now that I'm not actually in that moment, but merely looking at a photo of what once was, I'm pondering the frontier of possibilities that lay before me.
It's fairly often, I'm not able to be right where I am with feet firmly planted to the earth below me. I'm always thinking ahead. Always imagining my future in the place where I originally came from. Both places are so different from each other. I haven't given this new place (which really isn't that new anymore) a chance.
I long for what was and neglect where I am right now. It's time for me to be present--really present, here and now. It doesn't mean that I don't love where I came from. And, eventually, I'm sure I'll go back to that beloved land. But I want to be open to all the moments of now. I want to feel the soil on my fingers; experience the open land and the caress of this forest; the generosity and acceptance of the beings who surround me; and be a part of the spirit of this inspiring, intellectual community.
I won't be an island anymore. It no longer serves a purpose. As for the past--it will always be inside me, creating who I evolve to be, never too far away and tenderly awaiting my return.
10 things I hope (with all my heart and faith) to accomplish and experience in the coming year:
* create, sustain, and nurture life with my wonderfully amazing husband (aka...I really want to be a Mom!)
* pay off credit card debt
* be a fearless knitter--I will knit fair isle and cables
* really learn to relax (hence my newest blog www.meltingintooblivion.blogspot.com)
* find a career I'm passionate about (or at least figure out what that career might be)
* maximize the space in my tiny townhouse
* plant a happy garden
* reconnect with old (and new) friends more often
* drink more herbal tea
* write, write, write (good stuff, bad stuff, poetry, whatever...my writer hasn't been out to play in so long, it's time to reemerge!)